happy birthday!

i often joke that i have 4 kids-

[listed in chronological order]
child #1 is jankyface [sad but true; i feed him, pick up after him and love him unconditionally]
child #2 is the imac [thanks scootchers for convincing us to buy it!!]
child #3 is kate [so glad she's mine]
child #4 is my blog


O FANTASTICAL BLOG--

yesterday was your birthday.  

you're one now.

so grown up.

i look back on how you've grown and it makes me happy.

when i started writing letters i was struggling to find balance in my life.

i wasn't the most joyful person but i was trying to be.

now, i'm content and happy with where i am and with who i am.

and that's big.

to celebrate i made a cake and let kate smash her face in it.

[as if i need an excuse to make a cake]

please excuse the awesomely striped couch, it's comfy but ugly.

you are my confidant.
i use you to remember the good days and the bad.
the amazing and awesome adventures that come with raising a child,
and the frustrations too.

i write stories about work that i know will bring a chuckle when i reread them later in life.
heck, i even laugh while writing them.
ER patients are a different kind of lovely aren't they?

i tell you about the little things that make me smile:
macdos, reading books to kate, cake, shopping, jancer, traveling...
in the hopes that when someone [whether current friends or future posterity] reads this,
they will feel like they know me a little better.

you're my journal.
because of you i have a better memory.
i'm able to recall specific days and events [something i have never been able to do]
and that's all i hoped for when i started you a year ago.

thanks for letting me work through my struggles with you.
and thanks for letting me celebrate the good times with you.
a coworker [hi johnny!] recently said to me 'you seem much happier'.
i am.
i owe that in part to you bloggy.


thanks for everything.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

much love,
kayla


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